Money Has Been Sitting There

Money has been sitting in the background of everything lately. 

It’s really been stressful. Thankfully, Dad lent me money otherwise I don’t know where I’d be. 

The anxiety has been so bad at times that the black cloud took over my mind. 

I go numb. It consumes my thinking and feels like a lead noose strung my neck. 

It’s hard to feel optimistic some days. There’s so much I want to do but can’t because of the financial constraints. 

I’m terrified that the long Covid will never loosen its grip and eventually the bottom will fall out. 

For now, I’ve updated my resume and LinkedIn profile and examining my options. I’m doing the steps that I know I can take as the path unfolds before me.